Using make up...

Today was the first day I tried to use make up to hide the rashes on my face. (see pic) Not a good idea, it made my skin uber itchy and it looks very cakey. I just really want to look normal! I'm so done with being housebound but the thought of leaving the house with my face so rashy and pigmented makes me panic. Heart thumping dizzying panic.  Although make up somewhat hides pigmentation,  it also exaggerates the dryness of my face so... It's not really ideal, I rather be comfortable.

I may have to go back to work in April and I don't know if I could handle it. Sigh. I wish I was badass enough to not give an eff about how I look.... But alas.

14 weeks.

I've just had a shower so I'm slightly more redder than normal. Skin - dry but not flaky.

3 Months In!!

Too tired...

Just keep swimming

SO RED. Hrrr.

I'm a believer

Today after my usual gentle exfoliation of my face, the most amazing thing happened. Under all that grainy flaky mess was baby soft skin, red.... Yes,  but not dry. I can't stop touching my face. It feels so.... Normal.

I'm sure it'll turn back to scalyness by tomorrow, but just feeling that skin makes me feel more optimistic. I sometimes have niggling doubts about whether this topical steroid withdrawal malarkey is real but now, I'm a believer.

Also was looking at photos of myself before I stopped using protopic/steroids and I always always had dark red patches on my cheeks, even with my layers of foundation  and concealer. It was horrible having to depend on a cream to look halfway decent.  I refuse to go back to that! Neverrrr.