A Steroid Induced (not so) Hot Mess
Monday 15 September 2014
No news is good news
Okay, onto the how my skin is doing. My skin feels normal now, it is soft to the touch and that weird shiny appearance it used to have is almost gone. Pigmentation is still there but it is fading, just taking it's bloody time to go away. I'm not sure if this is in anyway linked to TSW but my skin now produces ridiculous amount of oil, I've never had oily skin as a teen but now I have spots and massive pores. All the same I'd still take this over dry cracking flaky skin in a heartbeat.
I wouldn't say I'm healed just yet as I seem to get micro flares every month or so, that last around two weeks. By micro flares I mean having flaky skin on the surface of my skin, around my eyes and cheeks. The flaky skin isn't itchy it's just unconvenient...
I feel like I'm over the worst bit of this rollercoaster called TSW but only time can tell if I'm really at the end. I will upload pics of my face at some point this week (I promise!). Hold on guys, don't lose hope! If you are flaring at the moment, try to be kind to yourself and let your skin do what it needs to do to get better again.
Sending out love waves to all my fellow warriors.
Sunday 22 June 2014
7 Months In O_O
My main worry at the moment is pigmentation, being of South Asian descent it is unfortunate that it doesn't take much for my skin to go into post inflammatory hyper-pigmentation mode. I'm using diluted lemon juice on the affected areas of my face at night to help my skin regain its natural colour and I think it's helping somewhat. (Please DO NOT use lemon juice on your face when you're flaring, it'll possibly make things worse and it'll sting too).
I have also started going back to work last month and that was a huge HUUUUUGE step for me. At the beginning, I felt very self conscious because of my face looking so very patchy and discoloured. After the first couple of days of feeling embarrassed, it dawned on me that most people do not give an eff about how I look, which in a way, is very liberating. My work colleagues have been nothing but supportive and it also gave me the chance to spread the word on the damage that topical steroids can inflict on people. There are still days where I look at the mirror and get all wobbly and insecure but I only have to think about the other skin warriors that are going through the same thing and it gives me strength.
I feel as though I have a little bit of my life back, and though I still pass on social engagements, I can feel my confidence building itself back up after being completely annihilated by this monster called TSW. There's hope out there guys, we can do this :)
Tuesday 27 May 2014
Broken Robot Girl
Sunday 27 April 2014
Wednesday 16 April 2014
Yay for sunshine!
It has been a beautiful week this week in the UK, and I've been soaking up the sunshine. I recently had a bloodtest done and my results indicated a fairly severe lack of vitamin D in my blood serum, as well as weirdly high TSH levels. I am now taking vitamin D supplements as well as sunbathing, and I haven't seen any changes to my face yet but sunbathing feels so nice. (I've never sun bathed in my life before, us south Asians try to stay out of the sun since paleness is considered beautiful, just one of those things, the grass always seems greener on the other side... I digress).
My skin is feeling stronger but I still have really dry red patches on my face and ofcourse it is still very much pigmented. I miss hanging out in town with a Starbucks frappucino, gossiping away with my girlfriends in the Sun. I am too self conscious to be outside my house for too long...
I know my withdrawal hasn't been as tough as other people's and I'm grateful for that but it still affects me. I'm trying not to let it but it's hard... I don't look people in the eye anymore... I wish I could move it off my face and put it in a different location, like me back. That way I wouldn't have to confront it every time I walk past a reflective surface.
I do hope everybody who is affected by topical steroids get some relief soon. The community at the ITSAN Forum has been a great source of comfort to me. Happy healing guys!
Thursday 27 March 2014
4 months in!!
Wednesday 12 March 2014
Using make up...
Today was the first day I tried to use make up to hide the rashes on my face. (see pic) Not a good idea, it made my skin uber itchy and it looks very cakey. I just really want to look normal! I'm so done with being housebound but the thought of leaving the house with my face so rashy and pigmented makes me panic. Heart thumping dizzying panic. Although make up somewhat hides pigmentation, it also exaggerates the dryness of my face so... It's not really ideal, I rather be comfortable.
I may have to go back to work in April and I don't know if I could handle it. Sigh. I wish I was badass enough to not give an eff about how I look.... But alas.